It's Been a While....
I could start out excusing myself for the long gap, but I'm going to spare you all that!
I WILL tell you that part of the reason I haven't updated is GOOD news! Yay!
If you remember in my last update (Day 52 Update), my Rheumatologist increased my thyroid dosage because my level had dropped over the course of the year. This was the first time since starting medicine it has dropped, so I had no idea this was part of my 'not feeling well' for those 6 months!
Thankfully, I am feeling alive again!! YES!!
I will get right to the Physical Part:
-My weight has remained about the same give or take a few pound at 120.
-My fatigue is SO MUCH better since starting the new dosage of thyroid medicine. I also chew it up instead of swallow because I read it could help with absorption.
-EATING??- I would say that I am comfortably eating probably an average of 80/20 with normal life going on these days.
Breakfasts: I eat hearty & healthy breakfasts EVERY morning.
Lunches: At least 5 of 7 lunches are healthy & nutrition during a normal week. This may vary if I am traveling like last week, but that is infrequent.
Dinners: THIS is my problem area.
I HATE cooking and would rather do anything else. I HATE thinking about what to cook 12+ hours in advance. I just hate it all & I wish I didn't. I had my children a home-cooked meal most nights of the week while they were home, so don't think they were neglected! ha BUT, since they have been gone & God has given me other things to fill my time, cooking gets dropped.
James, my hubby, is a wonderful cook. He can cook anything & taught me most of what I know (since I wouldn't listen to my mama who tried to teach me). BUT, he loves to fry anything & everything. Most nights I eat what he cooks, but I do try to eat healthier sides with whole grain rices & veggies. Not going to lie though because some nights are home fried chix breast nuggets & tater tots.
Everything in moderation is my goal. Some weeks that moderation & motivation is better than others.
OVERALL Physical: I am happy to say I am fitting comfortably in my clothes and I am feeling MUCH better overall.
Truth is, when I eat better I feel better. I try to remember that.
Now on to the best part - the SPIRITUAL Update:
I really do not know where to even start with this part!
It is mind boggling to me to see how the Lord is working in us & on us in every. single. season.
These past six months have been HARD! I would say some of the hardest in many, many years for me.
BUT I want to share some things I have learned in this mess:
- I can tell you that I have learned more about God's nature & character. He is faithful, He is kind, He is patient, even when I am not. He never, ever fails to meet me when I cry out to Him....even if it is 3am as I am pacing the floor, sobbing with nerve pain knowing my next medicine dose is 2 hrs away!
-One of my biggest AHA moments is how He finally got it through my thick skull that He loves me without me doing anything to 'earn' it! This sounds like a no-brainer and I knew the Sunday School answer, but He has shown me I didn't truly 'believe' it down in my core.
This was a LIE ingrained by the enemy before I even knew what it was! He revealed this to me & let me know WITHOUT DOUBT that I AM LOVED as much when I can do nothing as the days when I work 14 hrs with Him in the work He has called me to.
It is FREEDOM to finally know that God doesn't need me to help, He just invites me to come along for the exhilarating ride!
It took me being in a place where I was not able to do anything but lay flat of my belly & still in awful pain even then, for Him to show me He could handle my life, ministry, finances, all of it! Without me doing anything but laying on the floor talking to Him.
He is THAT good! Blows me away!
Let me tell you a couple of 'only-God-could-do' happens:
--I received a call, totally out of the blue on a Sunday night asking if I would like to help out at an accounting office 1-2 days per week! PROVISION! My skill set & works around my ministry schedule! AND I didn't have to start for 3+ weeks for extra time to heal! TOTALLY UNEXPECTED!!
-I had THREE opportunities to speak come my way without any promoting, asking, working....I did NOTHING and He brought not just one, but THREE paid speaking engagements! And again TOTALLY UNEXPECTED!!
He did SO MUCH MORE during this tough season of 'Rest, Recover, Strengthen for Endurance'.
He is the God of the Totally Unexpected!
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"Servants, do what you’re told by your earthly masters. And don’t just do the minimum that will get you by. Do your best. Work from the heart for your real Master, for God, confident that you’ll get paid in full when you come into your inheritance. Keep in mind always that the ultimate Master you’re serving is Christ. The sullen servant who does shoddy work will be held responsible. Being a follower of Jesus doesn’t cover up bad work." - The Message Version
Physical Update: (fyi:not nearly as exciting as the spiritual!)
Here we are at Day 52 of this new journey.
I will try my best to explain what has been happening with all of this without taking all day 😊
When I started this journey on Jan 1st:
On Day 52:
I will start by saying that my intentions were never to be 100% no sugar, no bad, no fun. Who can do that? All that would do for this girl is make me hate myself for messing up. I am not as into that as I used to be!
I’m loving myself a little better these days and trying to give myself grace to not be perfect. I have an amazing Father, who gives grace to me and is trying to teach me to accept it. I may be a slow learner, but I eventually get it.
It feels so sweet when I finally understand what He is trying to teach me, that I to wonder why in the world did it take so long?! If I could’ve only seen what He had for me. 😊
Okay…I got a little off track, but back to the HOW DID I DO part:
So that was the PHYSICAL part, but just look at the amazing SPIRITUAL stuff He is showing me!